Waiting for it, with expectation, one day could be one century.
Contrarily, without expectation, you'll be surprised when it comes
After all, it's above our controllability.
The conn is not on us.
Heart possess its own authority in dominating how the emotion goes,
brain is just limited to rationality matter.
Today, I receive the organ donor card.
Yes, finally it comes to my hand. WoWow~
The thought of 'it will never to be heard of again' ever appeared.
I even had emailed the association to inquire about the application status,
no actual response in reply.
Alright, just let it be...
The donor card texture is really a 'card',
I emphasise this due to my initial thinking that 'it should be similar to a plastic card' as credit card or debit card ,
out of my imagination the fact.
Another point to be stressed on is the instructions
of being how to peel open, turn over & over, punch here & there etc.
to complete the whole process of peeling it off from the paper card.
5 steps in total makes me giddy and woozy,
bilingual instruction, still in the fog -@,@-
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
《Hachiko 忠犬八公的故事》
我真的哭了， 不至于痛哭， 黯然泪流
这类型的戏 看多真伤身，尤对夯的人，像我
有种憋着憋着 情绪无法找到 适当出口宣泄 ， 只能做到 把伤感 细漏 释放
之所以看完后， 仍有种 无法释怀，感觉 身肩厚重情绪
喜欢狗狗的， 奉劝千万别看 《Hachiko 忠犬八公的故事》 -T,T- 泪奔
纵然是部温情催情催泪 电影，涵括感动 与 忠贞 情怀，
可却别忽略 这样的 戏码 所诠释出的 更多的是 伤感与 悲恸， 令我心 纠结抽搐。
看着 小八（狗狗名）痴痴等待，或许它感觉的 只是 一天天的等待，一天天的失望，
但看在我眼里， 我知道那是 一份永远等不到 回应的 等待，
这种感觉， 不夸张， 真让我 疯狂想了断生命， 让心不再跳动， 也就不用 再心痛。
狗狗， 让人怜悯， 让人痛惜，
当与人类之间的 羁绊越深， 越请做好心理准备与建设，任何一方 失去另一方的那天
总会瞬间来临。 这也就是 我们可能要面对的 终身遗憾
令人窒息， 不让我喘息
以下摘自部分网友's 观后感：
教授的妻子多年后回到家乡，看到八公依旧在那里等待，全家人都流泪了
一份等待 一份感动
对于它们来说 在你抱起它的那一刻起你就成了它的全部
即使它们的一生只有一个十年 它们也会选着用一生的时间换取人类所谓的忠诚
十个寒暑的等待，十个春秋的期盼，十份情意的宣泄，十分内心的感动，十种情感的交织......
当最后一班火车进站，八公依然蹒跚的穿过飘着雪的铁轨，爬上那个蹲守了十年的地方，
然后渐渐闭上了眼睛，梦里出现的幻觉，它看到主人终于回来了大声的叫着它的名字。
梦里，才能找到那份宁静的幸福……
what else can I feel?
By looking thru your expression,
my heart is tangled and galvanic.
Could you please stop it?
Your seely eyes makes me afflictive!
Or instead,
let me hug you as tight as I can
till you feel my warmth specially for you.
Love you always, Hachi~
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Case Study: Ritchie's FB
4 December, Ritchie's birthday.
He's my college friend.
'Happy Birthday' to him,
he can't receive my wish here though,
even on Facebook, where he's 'supposed' to be on.
His birthday pops up in my mind,
and wondering why there's none of a single birthday wish shown dedicated to him.
After checking, I only realise that his FB account is not existing anymore.
In our AEM3 page, I wrote there as follow:
'Ermns... he disappeared, without a trace, for various uncertain reasons. Anyhow, 'Happy Birthday'to him' - Lewis Ng (Lewis as my new English name)
As the above statement, there are various uncertain reasons for him to absent himself.
And I'm here blogging for the sake of studying those possible reasons behind of his act.
His FB account is closed down. Why and what's the notion.
The first major reason that appears in my mind is that Ritchie is controlling himself from being addicted to FB.
As long as we have the FB, there'd have some kind of strength pulling us to surf on it and spending (or wasting, more precisely) hours on it.
That's why the best remedy is to completely chop off the source of addiction - FB account!
As I know, Ritchie tends to be this kind of human species
who might have certain self-conditions loaded to himself.
He has his own thought, his thought can be hard to himself sometimes.
In other words, Ritchie has his own clear vision
and he can be determined enough to achieve the vision.
To be able to achieve it more easily, entertainment which can be the so-called 'obstacles' in his mind must be eradicated.
This can be true and real case from my observation and my knowledge on him during our studies in college, the style of his behaviour in pursuing his studies, the way he acted as the team leader in leading his team, the manner he adopted in accomplishing their team assignments and projects.
Strong determination is one of the positive characteristics I can found on him.
Indeed, amongst all my classmates, Ritchie is the one I can give much credit on his efforts putting on his school tasks.
Although he is neither the best performer, nor the 2nd-best performer,
nor nor the 3rd-best performer on academic record(my goodness, am I too over?),
yet I 'respect' his attitude.
He's the most participative in the class right after me (hahax wtf! it's true to a certain degree, sometimes -^o^-)
I can feel his pushfulness, he is pushful
He wanna be (or trying his best to be) the best, the most outstanding one.
I conjecture/ speculate that Ritchie himself has decided to close down his FB account based on the reason that FB can be a worthless entertainment, which in turn consuming his much time on resultless activities including chit-chat with friends, videos and songs, comments, games etc.
He has something more important to pursue, to achieve in his life
He is clear of his vision, determined and willing to sacrifice entertainment moments.
These are all of my own speculations of why his FB account is closed down based on the study of his temperament and character.
-Subject to Change-
He's much different from most of my other classmates, including myself.
I'm another species.
An almost-near-to-perfect species, who pursing a balanced life in the aspects of Ying & Yang ,yeah =P
p/s: Another friend of mine CCH also grumbled to me before that he's willing to sacrifice his entertainment in order to focus on achieving his life goal or life position where he is able to earn much money. Money is a live index of success to him. He is eager for proving himself to his family members, friends and even the whole society that 'HE CAN DO IT!'. From the perspective of pyramid needs, he is on the way of seeking and satisfying the ego need or the top self-actualisation need. Honestly, it can be quite dangerous to him as we're just new to the society, and his inner lust/desire floods so aggressively. Many might take years and years to be able to position themselves in a better place in the society. Other than that, one might not even be able to achieve what he desires forever IF HE DOES NOT KNOW OF HOW TO CONTENT WITH WHAT HE HAS. Egregious desire can lead one to the abyss of sorrow. Just be careful, to all my friends and myself.
He's my college friend.
'Happy Birthday' to him,
he can't receive my wish here though,
even on Facebook, where he's 'supposed' to be on.
His birthday pops up in my mind,
and wondering why there's none of a single birthday wish shown dedicated to him.
After checking, I only realise that his FB account is not existing anymore.
In our AEM3 page, I wrote there as follow:
'Ermns... he disappeared, without a trace, for various uncertain reasons. Anyhow, 'Happy Birthday'to him' - Lewis Ng (Lewis as my new English name)
As the above statement, there are various uncertain reasons for him to absent himself.
And I'm here blogging for the sake of studying those possible reasons behind of his act.
His FB account is closed down. Why and what's the notion.
The first major reason that appears in my mind is that Ritchie is controlling himself from being addicted to FB.
As long as we have the FB, there'd have some kind of strength pulling us to surf on it and spending (or wasting, more precisely) hours on it.
That's why the best remedy is to completely chop off the source of addiction - FB account!
As I know, Ritchie tends to be this kind of human species
who might have certain self-conditions loaded to himself.
He has his own thought, his thought can be hard to himself sometimes.
In other words, Ritchie has his own clear vision
and he can be determined enough to achieve the vision.
To be able to achieve it more easily, entertainment which can be the so-called 'obstacles' in his mind must be eradicated.
This can be true and real case from my observation and my knowledge on him during our studies in college, the style of his behaviour in pursuing his studies, the way he acted as the team leader in leading his team, the manner he adopted in accomplishing their team assignments and projects.
Strong determination is one of the positive characteristics I can found on him.
Indeed, amongst all my classmates, Ritchie is the one I can give much credit on his efforts putting on his school tasks.
Although he is neither the best performer, nor the 2nd-best performer,
nor nor the 3rd-best performer on academic record(my goodness, am I too over?),
yet I 'respect' his attitude.
He's the most participative in the class right after me (hahax wtf! it's true to a certain degree, sometimes -^o^-)
I can feel his pushfulness, he is pushful
He wanna be (or trying his best to be) the best, the most outstanding one.
I conjecture/ speculate that Ritchie himself has decided to close down his FB account based on the reason that FB can be a worthless entertainment, which in turn consuming his much time on resultless activities including chit-chat with friends, videos and songs, comments, games etc.
He has something more important to pursue, to achieve in his life
He is clear of his vision, determined and willing to sacrifice entertainment moments.
These are all of my own speculations of why his FB account is closed down based on the study of his temperament and character.
-Subject to Change-
He's much different from most of my other classmates, including myself.
I'm another species.
An almost-near-to-perfect species, who pursing a balanced life in the aspects of Ying & Yang ,yeah =P
p/s: Another friend of mine CCH also grumbled to me before that he's willing to sacrifice his entertainment in order to focus on achieving his life goal or life position where he is able to earn much money. Money is a live index of success to him. He is eager for proving himself to his family members, friends and even the whole society that 'HE CAN DO IT!'. From the perspective of pyramid needs, he is on the way of seeking and satisfying the ego need or the top self-actualisation need. Honestly, it can be quite dangerous to him as we're just new to the society, and his inner lust/desire floods so aggressively. Many might take years and years to be able to position themselves in a better place in the society. Other than that, one might not even be able to achieve what he desires forever IF HE DOES NOT KNOW OF HOW TO CONTENT WITH WHAT HE HAS. Egregious desire can lead one to the abyss of sorrow. Just be careful, to all my friends and myself.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Job Begging 2.0
Hi, Joanne
Perhaps the modes of DHL recruitment procedure are relatively complicated and
I understand that a certain amount of time is needed for processing.
However, I was not being notified of my recruitment status within one week as promised,
neither email nor phone call.
I appreciated your previous reply by telling me that reference check was under processing.
Alright, it'd be worth to wait for another couple of days more since I wish to work in DHL.
Until now, I'm still awaiting DHL's confirmation.
To be fortunate or not to be, I'm approached by another job offered by Public Bank
and being asked to respond latest by 4 December 2011.
No offence.
Earnestly hope that tomorrow can be the determination day.
Apologise if it's out of your control.
Yours sincerely,
Ng Yee Han
Perhaps the modes of DHL recruitment procedure are relatively complicated and
I understand that a certain amount of time is needed for processing.
However, I was not being notified of my recruitment status within one week as promised,
neither email nor phone call.
I appreciated your previous reply by telling me that reference check was under processing.
Alright, it'd be worth to wait for another couple of days more since I wish to work in DHL.
Until now, I'm still awaiting DHL's confirmation.
To be fortunate or not to be, I'm approached by another job offered by Public Bank
and being asked to respond latest by 4 December 2011.
No offence.
Earnestly hope that tomorrow can be the determination day.
Apologise if it's out of your control.
Yours sincerely,
Ng Yee Han
Monday, November 28, 2011
Job Begging
Another email to DHL.
As follows:
One week passes.
Expiration of notification time limit.
YAUP!!!!!!!!
As follows:
Hi Joanne,
Yee Han here.
I've been invited for face-to-face interview last Tuesday.
One week passed and yet, there's no any response from DHL.
Does it imply that I'll not be recruited?
For your information, CL Search agent called me last Friday and
informed me that DHL has confirmed the decision.
Moreover, she asked me to provide my referee contact information.
I sincerely wish that there's a good news in reply.
Thank you.
Yours sincerely,
Ng Yee Han
Yee Han here.
I've been invited for face-to-face interview last Tuesday.
One week passed and yet, there's no any response from DHL.
Does it imply that I'll not be recruited?
For your information, CL Search agent called me last Friday and
informed me that DHL has confirmed the decision.
Moreover, she asked me to provide my referee contact information.
I sincerely wish that there's a good news in reply.
Thank you.
Yours sincerely,
Ng Yee Han
p/s:
I value this job dead much.One week passes.
Expiration of notification time limit.
YAUP!!!!!!!!
Last Words
There will be no tomorrow.
Tomorrow is near Yet far away.
Seemingly close at hand, actually far away
Have you ever considered writing a farewell letter
or posthumous writings in advanced
dedicated to people surrounding you?
The affairs of the world is inconstant,
nothing is permanent in life, evanescent.
To a certain extent, it could be hard for us to write last words
since we're not being situated in the last moment
The true feelings and deep emotions might not be able to realise and reveal.
Nevertheless, are we sure that we'd have the great extravagant chances to make a regretless valediction?
Perhaps part of us is unaware of advanced preparation;
perhaps part of us just let nature take its course;
perhaps part of us has nothing to say in reply;
or perhaps the rest of us are born optimistic in nature, thinking of
"there'd still have another 'Tomorrow' on tomorrow"
Well, with deeper thought (to my level),
passing away is not a big deal indeed to the deceased
who're really burning souls in what the effin' hell?
Be aware of those around you
p/s:
Serve as a piece of suggestive writing
If i was asked:"Have you come with yours one?"
Bear with me by answering :"Object not found =]"
Tomorrow is near Yet far away.
Seemingly close at hand, actually far away
Have you ever considered writing a farewell letter
or posthumous writings in advanced
dedicated to people surrounding you?
The affairs of the world is inconstant,
nothing is permanent in life, evanescent.
To a certain extent, it could be hard for us to write last words
since we're not being situated in the last moment
The true feelings and deep emotions might not be able to realise and reveal.
Nevertheless, are we sure that we'd have the great extravagant chances to make a regretless valediction?
Perhaps part of us is unaware of advanced preparation;
perhaps part of us just let nature take its course;
perhaps part of us has nothing to say in reply;
or perhaps the rest of us are born optimistic in nature, thinking of
"there'd still have another 'Tomorrow' on tomorrow"
Well, with deeper thought (to my level),
passing away is not a big deal indeed to the deceased
who're really burning souls in what the effin' hell?
Be aware of those around you
p/s:
Serve as a piece of suggestive writing
If i was asked:"Have you come with yours one?"
Bear with me by answering :"Object not found =]"
Sunday, November 27, 2011
NTRC Organ Donation
I have decided to be an organ donator.
Form has been mailed, yet the donor card has not been received
May it come to me before my passion's extinguished
Organ donation was one of my presentation topics
during my advanced diploma studies.
I already had the notion of becoming an organ donator at that moment,
nevertheless, I lacked determination.
Till now,
the intention reemerges
and I ACT OUT finally
with the following enquiry email sent out...
Email : ntrc@moh.gov.my
p/s: if possible,
all my organs (heart, liver, lungs, kidneys)
and my tissues (bone, skin, eye corneas)
will just leave my body one day and parasitise on other bodies,
man, woman, boy, girl, young, old, Malay, Indian, Chinese etc.
last longer than it's fated!
End my life in wonderful full stop
Form has been mailed, yet the donor card has not been received
May it come to me before my passion's extinguished
Organ donation was one of my presentation topics
during my advanced diploma studies.
I already had the notion of becoming an organ donator at that moment,
nevertheless, I lacked determination.
Till now,
the intention reemerges
and I ACT OUT finally
with the following enquiry email sent out...
Email : ntrc@moh.gov.my
Hi there,
I've mailed my Donor Pledger Form to the following address:
National Transplant Resource Centre (NTRC)
Hospital Kuala Lumpur
Jalan Pahang
50586 Kuala Lumpur
However,
it has passed more than one month and till now,
I didn't receive the donor card yet.
May I know within how long commonly the applicant will receive the donor card?
Are you able to trace/check my status if my information provided?
Thank you.
May the God's blessing be upon us,
Ng Yee Han
p/s: if possible,
all my organs (heart, liver, lungs, kidneys)
and my tissues (bone, skin, eye corneas)
will just leave my body one day and parasitise on other bodies,
man, woman, boy, girl, young, old, Malay, Indian, Chinese etc.
last longer than it's fated!
End my life in wonderful full stop
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Interview - DHL
Affair: 1st time formal interview
Company: DHL IT Services Asia Pacific Information Services Sdn Bhd
Position title: IT Service Desk
Position nature: Graduate Trainee Program
Destination: Cyberjaya
Transportation: Private car
Consuming time: One hour go (without traffic-jam) ;
One & half hour back (with traffic-jam)
Working environment: Excellent! Peace & Clean
Security level: High. Access pass required for each gateway
Interview period: Two hours
Scope: Face-to-face interview + IT Assessment
Interviewers: Michelle Wong & Edward Yin
Characteristics: Amicable & comfortable
IT Assessment: 2 papers (Chinese & English)
Assessment scope: General IT knowledge, IT technical knowledge, Analytical questions, Mathematics questions, Personal interest-related questions
Recruitment Notification: Within one week
Interview day : Well, I'll consider it if being offered. If not, all right! Thanks anyway
Day-1 : No call. Ermn.. it's okay. It doesn't matter of how is the results.
Day-2 : Got a call, but from another company at Sepang. Kiss it goodbye.
Well, i'll appreciate it if being offered for DHL position.
Day-3 midnight: Too much thoughts struggling in my mind since 2 days ago.
All's about the interview process,
my performance during the interview,
how should i suppose to response to those questions,
"I should answer like this and like that..." etc.
Oh goodness! I have been starting to worry the results.
I even imagine that
"If DHL called me and offered me the job later,
I'll straightly answer "YES, I accept it!"
My gosh, what's up man?!
Possessed by the Devil...
Whatever I say is of no use now
and i know that it's no use regretting now
(I might not show much of my passion during interviewing)
Should i pray right now?
Yes, I should,certainly. My Great God!
The job comes by itself, not applied by myself
I believe it's a great gift presented by My Thoughtful God!
And please forgive my ineptitude and my unwisdom,
My Apt and Wise God!
I'll appreciate Your Love & Kindness on me,
with full of my regard
Tomorrow,
with my sincere expectation,
the gift will hug me, once again,
i'll feel the warmth and concern sent by My...
NO! it's beyond warmth and concern,
IT"S ALTAR FIRE!
by My Heaven
p/s: Kim (CL Search recruiting agent) & Joanne Mah (DHL Recruiter),
i can't help falling in love with both sounds..
appealing & captivating...
Feeling so comfortable when chatting with them on phone (-v,v-)
Company: DHL IT Services Asia Pacific Information Services Sdn Bhd
Position title: IT Service Desk
Position nature: Graduate Trainee Program
Destination: Cyberjaya
Transportation: Private car
Consuming time: One hour go (without traffic-jam) ;
One & half hour back (with traffic-jam)
Working environment: Excellent! Peace & Clean
Security level: High. Access pass required for each gateway
Interview period: Two hours
Scope: Face-to-face interview + IT Assessment
Interviewers: Michelle Wong & Edward Yin
Characteristics: Amicable & comfortable
IT Assessment: 2 papers (Chinese & English)
Assessment scope: General IT knowledge, IT technical knowledge, Analytical questions, Mathematics questions, Personal interest-related questions
Recruitment Notification: Within one week
Own interests & Feelings
Pre-interview day : Peace like a calm lakeInterview day : Well, I'll consider it if being offered. If not, all right! Thanks anyway
Day-1 : No call. Ermn.. it's okay. It doesn't matter of how is the results.
Day-2 : Got a call, but from another company at Sepang. Kiss it goodbye.
Well, i'll appreciate it if being offered for DHL position.
Day-3 midnight: Too much thoughts struggling in my mind since 2 days ago.
All's about the interview process,
my performance during the interview,
how should i suppose to response to those questions,
"I should answer like this and like that..." etc.
Oh goodness! I have been starting to worry the results.
I even imagine that
"If DHL called me and offered me the job later,
I'll straightly answer "YES, I accept it!"
My gosh, what's up man?!
Possessed by the Devil...
Whatever I say is of no use now
and i know that it's no use regretting now
(I might not show much of my passion during interviewing)
Should i pray right now?
Yes, I should,certainly. My Great God!
The job comes by itself, not applied by myself
I believe it's a great gift presented by My Thoughtful God!
And please forgive my ineptitude and my unwisdom,
My Apt and Wise God!
I'll appreciate Your Love & Kindness on me,
with full of my regard
Tomorrow,
with my sincere expectation,
the gift will hug me, once again,
i'll feel the warmth and concern sent by My...
NO! it's beyond warmth and concern,
IT"S ALTAR FIRE!
by My Heaven
p/s: Kim (CL Search recruiting agent) & Joanne Mah (DHL Recruiter),
i can't help falling in love with both sounds..
appealing & captivating...
Feeling so comfortable when chatting with them on phone (-v,v-)
 |  |  |
| Waiting in lobby, restlessly | An appetence for business pants | Mission completed |
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Testimonial for TARC
A piece of testimonial for my alma mater -
Tunku Abdul Rahman College (TARC)
Well well well~
"Sooth to say,
Ng Yee Han (2011) - Tunku Abdul Rahman College Graduate
p/s:
AirAsia is awarded the World's Best Low-Cost Airline for customer Product and Service Quality in 2011
Tunku Abdul Rahman College (TARC)
Well well well~
"Sooth to say,
there is no lack of colleges and universities which are leading the advantages like
experienced lecturers, favourable learning environment, well equipped facilities and various courses available.
TARC has become our choice, it is exactly because it possess a competitive advantage -
just with an add-on - Affordable tuition fees!
I couldn't think of any better way but comparing TARC to AirAsia,
low fares yet service quality guaranteed."Ng Yee Han (2011) - Tunku Abdul Rahman College Graduate
p/s:
AirAsia is awarded the World's Best Low-Cost Airline for customer Product and Service Quality in 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Bleeding Love
Reluctant to get up from bed in early morning
it's a great effort to me
Ever heard a proverb -
"Bed with the lamb and rise with the lark"
Oh please,
I fail to practise it every time i intent upon
I go the opposite way
All of a moment...
LOOK! There's a pig flying by～
cool right? =.=!
Well, dispense with the bullshit!
it's time to get down to brass tacks.
I get up slightly earlier today
drive to Selayang Shopping Mall,
not for shopping, but for the pure purpose of
Blood Donation!
wtf am i doing?
can anyone tell me since when have i been a benevolent man?
Offbeat, yet
a stimulating deed.
Releasing my long-stored of BLOOD!
My fiery-hot blood ejaculates in urge
jets of blood spurts OUT!
Oh-Yeah~ Wonderful~
Story ends here.
Visual storytelling...
p/s:
Link > Pusat Darah Negara on Facebook
updates details of all blood donation activities
it's a great effort to me
Ever heard a proverb -
"Bed with the lamb and rise with the lark"
Oh please,
I fail to practise it every time i intent upon
I go the opposite way
All of a moment...
LOOK! There's a pig flying by～
cool right? =.=!
Well, dispense with the bullshit!
it's time to get down to brass tacks.
I get up slightly earlier today
drive to Selayang Shopping Mall,
not for shopping, but for the pure purpose of
Blood Donation!
wtf am i doing?
can anyone tell me since when have i been a benevolent man?
Offbeat, yet
a stimulating deed.
Releasing my long-stored of BLOOD!
My fiery-hot blood ejaculates in urge
jets of blood spurts OUT!
Oh-Yeah~ Wonderful~
Story ends here.
Visual storytelling...
 |  |
| On scaffold. Bloodsucker's ready there. | Full to MAX! BURST soon~ ;P |
p/s:
Link > Pusat Darah Negara on Facebook
updates details of all blood donation activities
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Contingency Risk
"In nature there are unexpected storms
and in life unpredictable vicissitudes"
My cousin might undergo cardiac surgery soon after.
Heart-related problems will never be frivolous
If the injury severity index is hard to be imagined,
I presume the cost of operation can imply better,
RM 80,000 approximately
I appeared taken aback! wtf-X-wth
The amount is just an !Exclamation Mark!
To return from the digression,
there is no operation without a big bill.
What a truth!
Fortunately, Malaysians have
National Heart Institute
( Malay: Institut Jantung Negara, abbreviated as IJN )
- the premier heart centre which specialises in providing cardiology and cardiothoracic surgery services
How to 'vomit out' 80 thousands?
it'd be much easier to ask the patient to 'vomit blood' 80 times
wouldn't it be? =P
Ultimately, RM 300 settles up!
IJN's policy on operation payment comes down to
pay according to your ability basis,
meaning to say, just have to pay how much you're willing/able to
RM 80,000 is cut down to RM 300
Unusual yet FANTASTIC!
Off-Topic
Wish of being healthy always is just the final fantasy
"Storms gather without warning in nature,
and back luck befalls men overnight"
Yet, men incline to make a wish,
irrealisable wish,
one by one, one after another,
without ceasing... .. .
-The Power of Belief-
and in life unpredictable vicissitudes"
My cousin might undergo cardiac surgery soon after.
Heart-related problems will never be frivolous
If the injury severity index is hard to be imagined,
I presume the cost of operation can imply better,
RM 80,000 approximately
I appeared taken aback! wtf-X-wth
The amount is just an !Exclamation Mark!
[A brief interlude: Jay Chou's lates album 2011, 惊叹号!
the title song falls short of its album name, personally
as what he sings, '哇靠!'
and my turn to sing 'Effin' =]
To return from the digression,
there is no operation without a big bill.
What a truth!
Fortunately, Malaysians have
National Heart Institute
( Malay: Institut Jantung Negara, abbreviated as IJN )
- the premier heart centre which specialises in providing cardiology and cardiothoracic surgery services
How to 'vomit out' 80 thousands?
it'd be much easier to ask the patient to 'vomit blood' 80 times
wouldn't it be? =P
Ultimately, RM 300 settles up!
IJN's policy on operation payment comes down to
pay according to your ability basis,
meaning to say, just have to pay how much you're willing/able to
RM 80,000 is cut down to RM 300
Unusual yet FANTASTIC!
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| National Heart Institute (Institut Jantung Negara), Malaysia |
Off-Topic
Wish of being healthy always is just the final fantasy
"Storms gather without warning in nature,
and back luck befalls men overnight"
Yet, men incline to make a wish,
irrealisable wish,
one by one, one after another,
without ceasing... .. .
-The Power of Belief-
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
It's Love Emergency
Un'emergenza D'Amore
A melodious Italian song, share with myselfi love the first half of the song,
the rhythm is simple, light and clean
Strong emotion, being interpreted in a tender way
È un'emergenza d'amore il mio bisogno di te Un desiderio così speciale che assomiglia a un dolore per me È un'emergenza d'amore e no, non si chiede perché È un canto libero verso il mare questo viverti dentro di me Sei il vino e il pane un'esigenza naturale Sei il temporale che porta il sole da me, dolcemente Mi spiazzi il cuore ed io ti porterò dentro le mie tasche, ovunque andrai come una moneta, un amuleto che tra le mie mani cullerò | it's a love emergency my need of you a desire so special it feels like pain to me it's a love emergency and no, one doesn't ask why it's a boundless song towards the seas this feeling of having you live inside of me you are the wine and the bread a natural need you are the thunderstorm who softly carries the sun to me u break my heart and me, I will carry u in my pockets, wherever you go like a coin, an amulet that my fingers will play with |
p/s: the song played has been edited.
More than the up shifting of the pitch.
During the period of 0.59-1.03 & 1.07-end,
the voices are doubled and overlapped
for the sake of creating resonance effect.
Hope it does play a role -^^-
Monday, November 7, 2011
Esteem an Honour
An inexplicable superiority feeling
circulates through my sensitive body.
Hot & Sexy!
By theorising with Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs,
I have just achieved the 2nd highest need of "Esteem"
So, what's the recipe to my Esteem recognition?
Well, two of my friends have the thought to participate the competition of
"HSBC Young Entrepreneur Awards 2011-2012"
They generously invite me to join their team. Cool right?
I should be the first candidate they consider,
it implies that my exploitation value is relatively high in their esteem
(personally, i don't think they're judgematic and judicious =P wtf!)
Despite of the capability in proposal writing and idea generation aspects,
another crucial element they think over in candidates filtering and selection would be the personality pattern.
Collaboration and communication are the main source of conflicts,
especially working with someone not your favourite.
They do consider me might just due to the reason of they've never cooperated with me before, with the illusion of "I'm easy-going～"
Yeah, I believe this should be the authentic reasonable reason.
They know nothing of me yet.
Sooth to say,
The end of the esteem-related story
I decline their kind invitation.
Excuses can be thousand.
The simplest reason is "I'm in no mood for it."
p/s: i thought i'm just a nerd...
a bookworm in their eyes and now,
Being recognised ;-Delightful ~
circulates through my sensitive body.
Hot & Sexy!
By theorising with Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs,
I have just achieved the 2nd highest need of "Esteem"
Esteem
“presents the normal human desire to be accepted and valued by other” So, what's the recipe to my Esteem recognition?
Well, two of my friends have the thought to participate the competition of
"HSBC Young Entrepreneur Awards 2011-2012"
They generously invite me to join their team. Cool right?
I should be the first candidate they consider,
it implies that my exploitation value is relatively high in their esteem
(personally, i don't think they're judgematic and judicious =P wtf!)
Despite of the capability in proposal writing and idea generation aspects,
another crucial element they think over in candidates filtering and selection would be the personality pattern.
Collaboration and communication are the main source of conflicts,
especially working with someone not your favourite.
They do consider me might just due to the reason of they've never cooperated with me before, with the illusion of "I'm easy-going～"
Yeah, I believe this should be the authentic reasonable reason.
They know nothing of me yet.
I'm dictatorial, sometimes
I turn the cold shoulder on, sometime
I insist on doing things in my own way, some time
Sooth to say,
I can be a cooperative person， but i'm poor at cooperation
I can be a good team member, but i'm poor to be in team
I tend to individualism, but not collectivism
I might need others' help sometimes, but I prefer DIY most of the times
The end of the esteem-related story
I decline their kind invitation.
Excuses can be thousand.
The simplest reason is "I'm in no mood for it."
p/s: i thought i'm just a nerd...
a bookworm in their eyes and now,
Being recognised ;-Delightful ~
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Summary of UK Summer Life
OF WHAT & HOW I FEEL
A Complete List of My Feelings & EMOtions
Day trip - total 7 places
York, Manchester, Whitby, Blackpool, Cambridge, Oxford, Nottingham
p/s: there're 2 matters i wish to maintain secrecy
Evocative keywords: Hospitality & Magicstick
Both matters are darn real zinger.
Something untoward & abnormal, WTF!
EXALTING! -^o^-
A Complete List of My Feelings & EMOtions
| Admirable | Europe trip & Liverpool by friends, excluding me T,T |
| Angry | My notebook effin' darn lag. Ever screamed on it, slammed on it! Arghhhh!!! |
| Bewildered | Routeway of SHU buildings. Distributed and no enclosure, unlike Malaysia's campus all are being walled off. |
| Compunctious | Someone knocked my door and I insisted on keeping silent & irresponsive. Wondering if i'd been fucked |
| Delighted | Gathering & Parties nights. Games, beers & snacks! CHINOS-kebab:P |
| Depressed | Lowest PIC presentation mark={ |
| Disappointed | No luck to meet up with discounted soon-to-be-expired meat in Sainsbury's. No Bargain! |
| Dissatisfied | Coursework marking scheme & exam schedule, dead close with each other =\ |
| Disgusting | My room floor carpet was ever kissed by spill-out beers & vomit. eww~ |
| Embarrassing | Crying up to 3 times in the farewell day, face to face. T.T Damn it |
| Excited | Confronting a Chinese old lady in front of fruit stall. She murmured in Cantonese and watched us attentively, with glistening teardrops. Angela tried to communicate with her 'superior' Cantonese xD |
| Funny | Story-telling about CCH of Liverpool trip, by Angela .. Hee'Haw! |
| Girlish | Gossip, gossip & gossip, in my room, with... *shhhh~* |
| Grateful | Lost. Angela and I were lost in the way back. Though the local people we ask for direction had no idea, but he did phone for us |
| Hateful | Yelling from the drunkard, especially during my 'period' |
| Interesting | Musicians' street performance. Violin, harmonica, guitar, cello |
| Indifferent | Absent myself to all lectures. (Follow me at your own risk) |
| Irritated | Knocking my room door while I was sleeping |
| Inspiring | Chance on an open-air concert. Beers in all whites' hands |
| Jealous | Whenever there's any gatherings or parties amongst the other flatmates. And you're not being invited! (though absented myself sometimes ^o^) |
| Kooky | Photo capturing site can be ANYwhere. Can you imagine few GUYS were posing in front of the TOILET mirror and shooting? what the wacky act is! |
| Lazy | Washing dishes, cleaning oil stain on oven rack made from STAINLESS steel wtf!Leave it over night :] |
| Manful | Taking off my outer plaid shirt for Bee in a cool raining night after clubbing |
| Nervous | Presentation! My mind went completely blank |
| Overtired | Day-trip. Up to 4 - 6 hours of driving range to and fro. Snoozing ~ -,-Zz |
| Obsessed | Scenery of architectural constructions and design. 'Whoa! |
| Overjoyed | Playing soccer, flying disk, 'Monkey in the Middle' etc. on playground ;-) |
| Passionate | A hoary-headed pop 'lectured' us with all sorts of maps & articles from his rucksack |
| Pitiful | Poor boy~ Limited to ready meal & frozen foods during assignments & exams periods |
| Pleasing | Shopping at Primark, licking ice-cream under freezing weather |
| Proudful | I'm a Barber! temporary, but professional. Y.Y (CCH, a-Dai, cHoon, Hup). Exclusive barber to picky CCH =.= leehom, Xiao Zhu, Louis Koo hairstyles |
| Quarrelsome | Quarrelsome.. ermnn.. about the way in cooking soup. Angela liked to play 'big fire' whereas I preferred 'small fire'. |
| Regretful | I should have dropped in flatmates' room more often. Ask for more..evil* |
| Relieved | After knowing that I can stay with the one, two.. sadly no three, I wish to stay with |
| Reluctant | Tidy up. Papers all over the desk, clothes everywhere, my room is rough and tumble |
| Ridiculous | 4am out to living room for adult programme (nothing indeed ) |
| Satisfied | My en-suite room number - B , B means more than A to me |
| Shocked | "Hospitality" secret, it can't be joking, what a serious matter |
| Stressful | Exam. just 2 days for a subject |
| Surprising | Birthday surprise giving away. Total 10 birthday boys & girls. Angela (a bottle of ‘stolen’ wild lavender), Bee (a box with half-remained note papers, i stole another half), Hong (a lead crystal tumbler, Whitby ship), CCH (another lead crystal tumbler, Robbin Hood), Michele ( £1.50 cupcake), Klaire (5 chocolates in 5 colours), JingWen (a box of soon-to-be-expired Thorntons chocolate), KokWa (a ceramic Manchester trophy), KenV (a temporary grey colour hairspray), Blue (some kind of cookies cake) |
| Tense | Rice cooking time adjustment and management. If it's not handled well, well done! You'll be served scorched rice tonight. I cooked pretty good most of the time YEAH~ |
| Touching | Thanks my exclusive maid, Cecelia cooking for me during that 3-months period. Thumbs uP* |
| Upsetting | Cool war with Angela. Probably our 'Period' hit on the same 'Period' |
| Vigorous | Stepping up & down the stairs. Staying at 3rd floor (Block I Room 7B). Seldom took the elevator |
| Warm | A bottle of Antelope's horn drink. Clearing away heat & toxic material. sweet* by Sue |
| Worried | The management staff spot check of our dormitory (noise caused) |
| Wonderful | Chinese cuisine is available! Noodle Inn, HongKong Wok etc. Great taste, 'GREAT' Pricing too.. plus home cooking dishes : 2-3 dishes + 1 soup served for 2 persons =) |
| X-hausted | Lift overweight foodstuffs from retail outlets back to dormitory. WTF! Long distance.. back from ALDI |
| Yearning | Cold weather. 15° --++ Shuddering... shivering... quivering... with cold : / |
| Youthful | My room greenish young-style decoration! Plants, butterflies, sticky notes on walls |
| Zonked | I zonked out for the very first time. Feeling dizzy~ Strongbow, Carling, White wine plus spirits ~ @,@ |
Day trip - total 7 places
York, Manchester, Whitby, Blackpool, Cambridge, Oxford, Nottingham
p/s: there're 2 matters i wish to maintain secrecy
Evocative keywords: Hospitality & Magicstick
Both matters are darn real zinger.
Something untoward & abnormal, WTF!
EXALTING! -^o^-
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Paralysis of ExamResults
Results out.
Pre-stage-because of my worries, worry means to me that i'm weak enough to convince myself that i own the capability to score, to get 2nd upper class
On-stage- the results makes me blue and upset in the concerns of each subjects marks i scored. my ability was being challenged. effin' darn low marks. i was completely taken aback. wtf! whats wrong man of the exams?
Excluding the TARC marks in calculation, the SHU subjects; average marks ((58+53+61)/3=57.3%). shoot!!! below minimum average marks of 2nd upper (60%)
it can be concluded that i'm not-that-effin'-good.
only the '2nd upper' class award comforts my feelings, calms my emotions
now, i scored 61% average marks, nevertheless, 61% & 65% & 69% marks means differently to me although they all are categorised under 2nd upper class
61%, the dangerous edge of 2nd upper, i can't feel proud of that, of myself.
Much unexpected affairs of the marks occurred
EBM & SMM are comprised of 50% coursework and 50% exams
Scored 65% (EBM) & 66%(SMM) for coursework
my innocent thought is that the exam should be okay which leads to the thought that the final marks should be no problem as well
who knows the final marks... wtfffffff!!! effin; darn it shootly! i just felt a shot right through of my mind and gave me a bolt out of the blue
by calculation, i just scored 51% (ebm) and 40%(smm) in my exam papers. ewww~~
while for PIC which score the LOWEST mark (42%) for presentation part IN MY CLASS!! PROBABLY EVEN IN THE WHOLE COURSE
WTF! the GREATEST insults of mine in Lucas study's life!!!
it was such a heavy strike to Lucas, as an ever-the-best-presenter credited by certain tutors.. they are all blind based on my shitty performance now
the face is lost to the limit. But i can hold it!! the whole situation I HOLD IT WELL! controlling myself not to show heavy expression in front of my friends
for this subject, initially having the thought of "it must be 50++ something", and God knows the final marks be the highest amongst the 3 subjects
sometimes really "Man proposes, God disposes"
with the helping marks of TARC, but isn't that TARC marks comprised of my effort in TARC exams?
can this be considered as lucky or my own competence, more precisely?
how many days stay up the whole night in UK for the sake of coursework and exams?
it's uncountable , but what can I tell is that i'm getting thinner because of that
no pps drama and movies, no proper meals taken on time, no normal sleeping time
Nights are my days, a typical vampire life
never attend any official lecture, im just too sleepy and too lazy to wake up my mind and my physical body early in the morning about 9 or 10am
never take any note on my lecture note
however, i did attend 'most 'tutorial classes, paying attention 'most of the time', no preparing tutorial questions 'most of the time' but participating myself 'most of the time'
Am i lucky? Probably, but not certainly
p/s: An indirect effin' cool Quotation by someone..
"i'm not getting better, i'm always maintaining, it's just that you guys are falling back!"
DEPRESSED
Pre-stage-because of my worries, worry means to me that i'm weak enough to convince myself that i own the capability to score, to get 2nd upper class
On-stage- the results makes me blue and upset in the concerns of each subjects marks i scored. my ability was being challenged. effin' darn low marks. i was completely taken aback. wtf! whats wrong man of the exams?
Excluding the TARC marks in calculation, the SHU subjects; average marks ((58+53+61)/3=57.3%). shoot!!! below minimum average marks of 2nd upper (60%)
it can be concluded that i'm not-that-effin'-good.
RELIEVED
only the '2nd upper' class award comforts my feelings, calms my emotions
now, i scored 61% average marks, nevertheless, 61% & 65% & 69% marks means differently to me although they all are categorised under 2nd upper class
61%, the dangerous edge of 2nd upper, i can't feel proud of that, of myself.
UNEXPECTED
Much unexpected affairs of the marks occurred
EBM & SMM are comprised of 50% coursework and 50% exams
Scored 65% (EBM) & 66%(SMM) for coursework
my innocent thought is that the exam should be okay which leads to the thought that the final marks should be no problem as well
who knows the final marks... wtfffffff!!! effin; darn it shootly! i just felt a shot right through of my mind and gave me a bolt out of the blue
by calculation, i just scored 51% (ebm) and 40%(smm) in my exam papers. ewww~~
while for PIC which score the LOWEST mark (42%) for presentation part IN MY CLASS!! PROBABLY EVEN IN THE WHOLE COURSE
WTF! the GREATEST insults of mine in Lucas study's life!!!
it was such a heavy strike to Lucas, as an ever-the-best-presenter credited by certain tutors.. they are all blind based on my shitty performance now
the face is lost to the limit. But i can hold it!! the whole situation I HOLD IT WELL! controlling myself not to show heavy expression in front of my friends
for this subject, initially having the thought of "it must be 50++ something", and God knows the final marks be the highest amongst the 3 subjects
sometimes really "Man proposes, God disposes"
LUCKY, YES or NO?
with the helping marks of TARC, but isn't that TARC marks comprised of my effort in TARC exams?
can this be considered as lucky or my own competence, more precisely?
how many days stay up the whole night in UK for the sake of coursework and exams?
it's uncountable , but what can I tell is that i'm getting thinner because of that
no pps drama and movies, no proper meals taken on time, no normal sleeping time
Nights are my days, a typical vampire life
never attend any official lecture, im just too sleepy and too lazy to wake up my mind and my physical body early in the morning about 9 or 10am
never take any note on my lecture note
however, i did attend 'most 'tutorial classes, paying attention 'most of the time', no preparing tutorial questions 'most of the time' but participating myself 'most of the time'
Am i lucky? Probably, but not certainly
p/s: An indirect effin' cool Quotation by someone..
"i'm not getting better, i'm always maintaining, it's just that you guys are falling back!"
Monday, October 31, 2011
My Lord, My God
Lord, today I'm just really stressed.
You know, Lord, that my UK honours degree final exam results will be released on tomorrow.
Very soon.
I know it's probably not the biggest world problem,
with people starving, people turning away from You,
people in wars and more.
But, Lord,
it's what I'm facing right now,
and I need You in this time.
I know that no problem is too big or too small for You to handle,
and I need to turn this stress over to You to help me with.
Lord, I just need to get second-upper class.
I pray, Lord, please hallucinate those exam markers of my papers to perceive that I have done a pretty good job in answering those effin' darn shoot exam questions.
You are omnipotent. You can even turn the clock back, I know it well.
Give me the peace along with the flying colours.
Also,
I need You to help me feel more confident that I've scored the grade I long for
and relax a bit so that I can sleep well tonight.
Peace of mind.
Lord,
Praise Your name, Amen.
You know, Lord, that my UK honours degree final exam results will be released on tomorrow.
Very soon.
I know it's probably not the biggest world problem,
with people starving, people turning away from You,
people in wars and more.
But, Lord,
it's what I'm facing right now,
and I need You in this time.
I know that no problem is too big or too small for You to handle,
and I need to turn this stress over to You to help me with.
Lord, I just need to get second-upper class.
I pray, Lord, please hallucinate those exam markers of my papers to perceive that I have done a pretty good job in answering those effin' darn shoot exam questions.
You are omnipotent. You can even turn the clock back, I know it well.
Give me the peace along with the flying colours.
Also,
I need You to help me feel more confident that I've scored the grade I long for
and relax a bit so that I can sleep well tonight.
Peace of mind.
Lord,
Thank You for all the blessings You have placed (are placing & are going to place) in my life.
Thank You for being here in this time when I feel a bit overwhelmed.
Thank You for always being there and allowing me to rely on You.
Praise Your name, Amen.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Trick-or-Treat !
Just let you know...
the horror story begins as... .. .
The hallowed Saint' believers are all hurrying in the way of preparing
for the annual grand festive occasion!
Feteday: Halloween, 31 Oct & Hallowmas, 1 Nov
Period of Fete: 2 days 1 night
Site: National Heroes Cemetery
Prayers No.: 666 persons
The sacrifice required to respectfully present comprises
Wish the holy men taste frantic & lunatic
All Hallows' Eve & Day!
As to the children, Trick-or-Treat Hooray!!!
(Carved by my art-endowed college-mate, Klaire Chuah )
p/s: My favourite dish - mashed pumpkin =P
it makes my mouth water =P---
the horror story begins as... .. .
The hallowed Saint' believers are all hurrying in the way of preparing
for the annual grand festive occasion!
Feteday: Halloween, 31 Oct & Hallowmas, 1 Nov
Period of Fete: 2 days 1 night
Site: National Heroes Cemetery
Prayers No.: 666 persons
The sacrifice required to respectfully present comprises
- an altar with altarpiece, altar ware, wine, bell, candles
- a roll of introit
- three male & female virgin respectively
- 13 pumpkins carved evil & geeky faces
Wish the holy men taste frantic & lunatic
All Hallows' Eve & Day!
As to the children, Trick-or-Treat Hooray!!!
p/s: My favourite dish - mashed pumpkin =P
it makes my mouth water =P---
Friday, October 28, 2011
Black Cat
Another cat appears in my house today.
With my effin' high observation ability (comparable to Forensic Heroes),
the characteristic features of The Cat include
After clarifying the facts,
the Cat is indeed a come-by-itself cat
it steals into my house under no one's awareness,
uncannily and mystically...
Rumour has it that a come-by-itself black cat is
unsonsy and ill-omened.
This might be disquieting to superstitionists
but personally,
it's just an effin' shoot darn unfounded hearsay.
p/s: my house is feeding 3 dogs + 1 cat
she'll meow me whenever i get out of the bathroom
this asserts that she has perfect hearing and
a crush on me.
Meow ~ (it might be only cupboard love, who knows! Cat knows)
With my effin' high observation ability (comparable to Forensic Heroes),
the characteristic features of The Cat include
Coloured in black & white, with black spot on nose
I presume it is a Male based on the fact that
“A tomcat will only inherit ONE colour from its mum, white excluded”
It should be a runaway house pet since it's laying quietly & unworried.
Thin body, a poor diet has lowered its vitality.
And ... period.
After clarifying the facts,
the Cat is indeed a come-by-itself cat
it steals into my house under no one's awareness,
uncannily and mystically...
Rumour has it that a come-by-itself black cat is
unsonsy and ill-omened.
This might be disquieting to superstitionists
but personally,
it's just an effin' shoot darn unfounded hearsay.
p/s: my house is feeding 3 dogs + 1 cat
she'll meow me whenever i get out of the bathroom
this asserts that she has perfect hearing and
a crush on me.
Meow ~ (it might be only cupboard love, who knows! Cat knows)
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Bizarre Male Bonding
This song is specially edited in the aspect of lyric
and especially dedicated to him - LeeHom as his effin' facetious nickname,
exclusively called by me. Darn.
The original song name is 《Bizarre Love Triangle》, but nothing to do with that.
I attempt to individualise the song for the sake of corresponding to the real picture by naming it as
p/s: Listen up!
i'm out of it, with much lamentations follow the fadeout of the bonding.
and especially dedicated to him - LeeHom as his effin' facetious nickname,
exclusively called by me. Darn.
The original song name is 《Bizarre Love Triangle》, but nothing to do with that.
I attempt to individualise the song for the sake of corresponding to the real picture by naming it as
Bizarre Male Bonding
Every time I think of you
I feel a shot right through
with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
And every day my confusion grows
every day my confusion grows
my confusion grows
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
(we're meant to be)
p/s: Listen up!
i'm out of it, with much lamentations follow the fadeout of the bonding.
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